It's been awhile....

I know I haven't posted much this semester. It has gone by quickly. I feel like I just began this semester, and yet it is already almost over. I have one more final to go on the 16. This semester has been really rough. September wasn't too bad. Our Gerontology class ended then and our Psychiatric Nursing class started. This was very interesting. We had clinicals every Friday at a Psych hospital. Honestly, I was terrified. I was unsure of how the patients would act. My first couple clinicals consisted of being on the adolescent unit. This just hurt my heart. In talking with some of these kids, I realized that they were going through some of the same things that I went through as a teenager. I kept wondering, what is so different that they ended up here? I realized that coping skills had a lot to do with it. These teenagers had no idea how to cope with life, so they turned to running away or cutting themselves. I think that part of the reason some teenagers didn't know how to cope was because of their lack of good parents. A lot of these kids came from broken homes and such. It was tough. The other weeks of Pysch clinicals got more and more interesting. But, overall, I feel that it was a good experience. And my clinical instructor ROCKED!
October was very hectic. I was at clinicals 3-4 times a week. This was such a stressful month. Care II was ending the end of October and OB began the middle of October. This month brought a lot of stress and tears, but I got through it. I loved my Care II clinicals. I had the best preceptor. I got to do so many things. I knew I was going to love being a nurse. Once OB clinicals started, I feel in love again. Despite my clinical instructor, I love OB clinicals. It is such a happy place. Labor and Delivery is so much fun. I LOVE seeing the joy on parents faces as they become parents and see their child for the first time. I cry every time. I forgot just how much I loved seeing that back from my days at CMC L&D. My last OB clinical is tomorrow. I am sad about that, but I am looking forward to my break. My psych class ended on November 30. So, now all I have is OB. It is a very tough class. But, overall, I enjoy it. Break is just 8 days away now. In 10 days, I head to Charlotte, NC for Christmas. I am more excited than I can express in words. I am really looking forward to the time with my family. That is something I really need.
God is doing some great things in my life. Once I realized that I am doing all of this for Him and not for anyone else, my confidence came back. God has been so good to me. He has blessed me. I was too full of doubt. Once I got rid of my doubt, my weight was lifted. God will see me through this rough year of school. I have already come so far. I have 5 months until I graduate. He will see me through!

Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. ~Galatians 1:10